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More Loss

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  It has been so long since I've posted. (I realize I have no "followers". Someone might happen upon my site and read a blog or 2. That's fine. God brings who he wants to see this.) You might have read previously that my dad died last summer 2 days after his 103rd birthday. Even though he was old, his death came on suddenly one morning. It wasn't a slow, go to sleep and not wake up, type death. He woke up and told my sister something wasn't right. He died that morning. My sister didn't have time to let us know.  Yesterday morning my mom passed away 11 days after her 95th birthday. She was in a natural coma at the end and we all had a chance to say what we needed to say; to say "Goodbye".  She had fallen again back about January 21, 2025. She broke her other leg and they did surgery. Because she lost so much blood her blood pressure dropped. She was put in ICU for 4 or 5 days then onto a regular floor. She never really went back to eating much. Sh...

Loving yourself-

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  Again, listening to TBN network-Love when the women get together on "Better Together", but what I'm gonna share with you is from a televised Joyce Meyer meeting. I hope I don't break any copyright laws, but since I have no followers and very few views I don't think that will be an issue. :) From Joyce Meyer: "One of the worst things you can do is talk negatively about yourself. The devil is already against you. You don't need to agree with him." Makes sense, right? She goes on to say "Get into agreement with God. If you live with someone who constantly speaks badly to you, you need to be around friends who build you up and if you can't do that go into a room and speak out loud what God says about you.... If someone tells you you're stupid 5 times a day, go into a room and tell yourself 25 times that God says you have the mind of Christ." God loves you! Blessings, Mary

Worship (laryngectomy, laryngectomee)

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Going through some sermon notes this evening, I came across again the one on "Victorious" and specifically, "Worship". Questions for worship (asked by the preacher): Who is worthy to be worshipped?       Only God, Father-Son-Holy Spirit. We are on the earth to worship God, to have relationship with Him. Who does the worshiping?        That's us (at least here on earth). The angels worship in heaven.  Who is worship really for?       Hmmmm.....I think that would be "US". Worship brings us into a closer relationship with the Lord, which is why we are here on earth. I think the Lord, too. Our worship pleases Him. I am self-conscious when I worship at church. The singing part that is. Because of my laryngectomy I can't sing with my voice anymore so I use sign language. It's a beautiful way to express my heart. But God knows my heart without my voice and without my signing. I think though it's the corporate aspect of us all going to the ...

Love

I was listening to CeCe Winans' Generations Podcast. Some of the below are quotes from the Bible (I don't know where). Some of this is just quotes from wise Christian women that I thought I would share: "The whole definition of love shows that there is conflict. 'Love is patient...longsuffering.....love keeps no record of wrong'" "Love covers a multitude of sin"  "Love one another in spite of" "Absence of conflict makes it impossible to grow closer to one another" "If we have love for one another, we forgive one another" "Love keeps no record of wrong."

Kids...

  I was listening to the TODAY show and heard some really good stuff. "We've all messed up our kids in some way.      "Guilt" is that's a bad moment      "Shame" is I'm a bad person TODAY show quote:  When you're stuck in guilt, SERVE! Compliment a stranger Do a puzzle with a teenager. Then...... I was listening to Priscilla Shirer and Candace Cameron and Priscilla had some good stuff to say about praying for our kids [and perhaps grandkids].  "Lord, would you let the weight of conviction be so heavy on them that when they are trying to do wrong they actually can't because there is such a gut level feeling of discomfort. They can't rest well,  their gut feels uneasy so they can't even enjoy food...."" "When our kids are home we are the loud voice of conviction, but when they go off to college or living in their own worlds there still needs to be a loud voice and it won't be you because you don't know what...

facing reality, being a caregiver

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I think my husband is having more bad days. I have to realize he needs more care. He used to make himself meals. We have plenty of leftovers that he could just heat up, but he doesn't remember we have them. I created a board where I listed the leftovers in the fridge. He forgets the board is there. When I tell him what's in the fridge, he occasionally will heat it up. Sometimes he just goes into the bedroom without eating. I don't know if he's just being lazy or if he can't remember what to do. "If he gets hungry he'll figure it out" you may say. I don't know if he will.  When I prepare his bedtime insulin, sometimes I can give it to him without explaining. Sometimes he says "so I inject this in my belly?". And sometimes he says "what do I do with this?"  I've been asking God to show me, without a voice, where I can minister. This morning during Sunday morning worship, God told me my husband needs me more. I don't need t...

A Mealtime Prayer

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In our family, as Catholics, we followed the traditional Catholic prayer before a meal: Bless us oh Lord And these thy gifts Which we are about to receive From They bounty. Through Christ, Our Lord, Amen When I had a family of my own, I didn't want anything traditionally Catholic. And this mealtime prayer? Well it was a rote prayer that we memorized. We said it so often it became just words, no meaning. My husband and I wanted something more personal done before each meal. A lot of times there was repetition, but we tried to bring in thanksgiving for a variety of different things. However, there was a point that I felt like my husband was doing his devotional prayer at the dinner time....his prayers would seem to go on and on while the food was getting cold. At that point, a memorized, traditional prayer would have been nice. (tongue in cheek) Another thing about a memorized, traditional prayer.....I still know it. I can say it and I love that I still know it. I wish I had institut...

Beyond Christmas Day

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Amen and Amen!  He was born to die.  I hate that. What is there to like about that? Because soon after we celebrate Jesus birth at Christmas, we will begin the 40 days of Lent where we prepare to celebrate his resurrection. There would be no resurrection if He hadn't been born; and then he died. Why did He have to die? It's actually a long story that I don't fully understand, but I'll try to explain a bit. In the beginning, long before the earth was created, God knew that when He created man, man would rebel. But He created mankind anyway. God is a just God and when wrong his done, sin must be punished. Because He is a just God.  BUT WAIT! God set up a system whereby a blood sacrifice would cover your sins. The blood of a lamb. Many sacrifices were instituted, but the blood of the lamb is for forgiveness of sins. So every year, the Jews had to go to the temple to sacrifice an animal for the forgiveness of their sins. But all along God knew that He would provide a sacrif...

Blessed to be a Blessing

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  I tried to find in the Bible where it said "we are blessed to be a blessing". The Bible doesn't EXACTLY say that, but what it does say is "And I shall bless you and make your name great and so you shall be a blessing." We are all blessed in different ways. Some with money, some with family, some with relationships. Some are blessed with great talents that can be used to bring glory to God. ALL we do should bring glory to God. We are all blessed, but my name, my being known by many, will never be great. If I can be known to my family as a lover of God, I will be blessed. If those around me, not family, know that I'm a lover of God, I will be blessed just a wee bit more.  I pray that this Christmas you will find ways to be a blessing to those around you. Blessings, Mary

God's Wrath vs Victory in Jesus

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  It's hard for us think that God shows wrath.  After all, He is a kind, loving God that wants only the best for everybody doesn't He? Yet there is evil in the world and evil needs to be dealt with.  When we think about bad things happening in the world we get angry. We want justice for the victim. We don't know the victim but feel bad that something horrible has happened. Now if that victim is our child we take a whole different look at it. We are more determined than ever to not just get justice but to display our wrath on the perpetrator. That's how God is with us. Our pastor said this morning, "the greater the love, the greater the wrath."  God made mankind to have freewill. We are given choices. Those of us with high standards who treat people with love and kindness are making those choices and God gives us strength to carry out those choices. But those that have evil intent also have a freewill.  They are choosing to do evil. Free will is free will. Unfo...